BABYMAMMA?

;; sheeeesh, i havent written in a long time, yet i've had this one major issue on my mind for the longest. Everyone who was concerned about the situation already knows the deal and agrees with me completely because they see and understand where i was coming from. But, i still feel the need to write about it and get it completely out of my system and put it behind me.


so i was really close friends with this girl i called my ACE//BABYMAMMA. she was like my sister. my ride Or die. we went through alot of things with one another. Friendships, struggles, prom, fighting her boyfriend with her, you name it I WAS THERE. basically she forever had my back and i had hers and throughout our 3yr or so friendship, our loyalty to one another had been proven.

then we met a girl way down the line. a girl who ended up developing a strong liking towards my ACE, who unfortunately didn't feel the same way about her. NOT EVEN CLOSE. And this girl and i ended up becoming close friends as well. i considered her something like another besty. when she had no where to sleep, i let her stay at my house. When she was hungry, i fed her. when she had no money, i had her. Yes, sometimes when i was going through shit, she was there for me as well. But, eventually her backstabbing ways came out which caused the sister hood bond i had with my ACE to dwindle.


SO anyways, my ACE eventually became pregnant and granted me the honor of being god mother. My 1st and only godson, so you know i was excited. But, then this girl got jealous of me being chosen to be god mother (as if my ace had known her years before me). i'm thinking to myself, "Bitch u better not be acting childish over that when we JUST met ur ass a little less than a year ago andddd you already have 3 godkids." But, i kept my thoughts to myself and just knew some shady shit was going to go down in 9 mos when my godson arrived. Within like the next 2 days, she came to my house talking about "i'm the godmother now too, but dont trip i knoww your the main one." wtfff...smh (this is why u dont have multiple godparents. one of each is enough.)


ok so skip...skip..the baby is here. the months have gone by and were normal. but just like my prediction of how things were going to change once the baby was here were correct. me and this girl were supposed to go visit ace and "our" godson in the hospital together, but nooo without me knowin, her shady ass snuck and went without me so she could be the 1st. wooow. shady huh? so i went with my boyfriend later that night (and thats when i found out she had been there earlier.) things changed from then on. i noticed she would try and "compete" with me on small things like a little ass kid.

i'd have MY godson in my ikon with his name in my away sayin godmommy loves u and will see u soon...etc...etc. you think she would ALL OF A SUDDEN DO THE SAME THING? yesss, she would. she would have all kinda girls on her ikon but then when she saw my aways and shit she would switch them 2 my godson. shady. i worked ALOT making breadddd especially since he was in the world now. but anyways since i worked so much i didnt have as much free time, so when i did i would drive out to sylmar 2 see my lil man. she seemed to go out there every other day. and i'm already knowin why. to make herself seem like sucha greaaat person when in reality shes looking shady kuz shes basically using a BABY to make herself stand out and eventually be the only godmother in the picture. her actions had been telling me she basically wanted to steal my friendship and my godson. IDGAF what anyone says, i wasnt born yesterday and im not blind.

so her birthday comes up and being the GREAT friend that i am, after working a 12-hr shift i make sure i go and show my face at her dinner, not caring how late i was, it was the thought that counts. You know that was the last time we spoke ? she wanted my spot that bad lmao. damn shame after everything i've done niggas could do me so grimy and use a baby to get there.

you know after MY godson was born, I never heard or saw her go visit HER godkids anymore ? her ikons and aways are never about her REAL godkids kuz she wanted to kiss my ace's ass so bad to get that #1 spot. and i let her kuz im not the type to kiss anybodies ass or use a baby to get what i want. as much as i LOVE thAT little boy,i couldnt continue to go through that silent madness that everyone could see EXCEPT my own ACE. so fucking sad, but thats LIFE. whatever


and down the line me and my ace unfortunately ended our friendship. we just drifted after i felt like she did me shady too. one day me and my ace were talking and she was telling me she would be coming to my area the next day 2 get her nails and stuff done and that she would drop my baby off so i could spend time with him. i was soo excited and immediately started cleaning up. i re-arranged my wholeee house which made alotttt more space, fit for my godson. the next day i cancelled all my plans so i could have a godmom and godson day. hours went by, no sign of them. i hit my bro up, he hadnt spoken 2 her. i hit her up, NO RESPONSE. hours go by again and i happened 2 look at my homegirls away msg and saw that she was in my area hanging with her when she told me she was gunna come 2 me!!! and had took my godson 2 see that old backstabbing friend of mine and then took him 2 his dads. but NEVER brought him 2 see me or even hit me up 2 let me know SOMETHINGGG!! i was sooo hurt i cried. and im not the type to cry like that. but i crieddd that night, my bf was there to comfort me. i thought that was soo fucked up. and do u ever think i got an apology? nopeee. til this day. so from that dAY forward i decided i was done with that shadyness. i didnt wanna keep gettn fucked over by ppl i thought were my friends. and i expeted more from a fee i considered my ACE, but she fell into that other girls trap. and now that girl has what shes been wanting. MY ACE AND MY GODSON. kuz like i said I REFUSE TO KISS ASS AND BE SHADY. I WASNT BORN YESTERDAY. I KNEW FROM THAT DAY THAT SHE WAS RANDOMLY MADE "GODMOTHER #2" THAT SHE WAS GUNNA FUCK ME OVER FOR MY ONLY GODSON WHEN SHE ALREADY HAS 3 GODKIDS THAT SHE DOESNT EVEN GO AND SEE .

DAMN SHAME.

AND NIGGAS TRY AND ACT LIKE THEY DONT KNOW WHY I STOPPED TALKING TO THEM. THE FUCK OUTTA HERE. AND WHATS EVEN MORE FUNNY IS THAT NOW THAT IM OUTTA THE PICTURE SHE'S CALLING MY OLD BABYMAMMA ....BABYMAMMA. LOL THAT SHOWS THAT I'VE BEEN RIGHT THE WHOLE TIME. SMMFH



GONEEE.

ROYAL FLUSH

IM WITH MY ROYAL LADIESSS RIGHT NOW OUT TO EAT/MEETING=]

THEY ARE FUCKIN BOMB AND HILLARIOUS!!! LOVE THESE HOES.
PARTYIIINGGGG IT UP THIS WEEKEND FER SUREEEE!


OUR PHOTOSHOOT IS THIS WEEKEND AS WELL SO LOOKOUT!

COMMERCIAL CASTING
AND MUSIC VIDEO NEXT WEEK.

WANNA BE APART OF IT? HIT ME.

K MY LAPTOPS ABOUT TO DIE LOL

BYEEEEE

A&R

I AM AN UP AND COMING A&R//TALENT SCOUT IN THE PROCESS OF STARTING A LABEL FROM THE GROUND UP WITH A TEAM. BUT FOR NOW WE WORK FROM THE COMFORT OF OUR HOMES. (YOU GOTTA START SOMEWHERE =]

ANYWAYS, I'VE ALWAYS HAD THE LOVE AND THE EAR FOR ALL TYPES OF MUSIC SINCE I WAS YOUNG, SO IT'S ALWAYS BEEN A DREAM OF MINE TO WORK IN THE ENTERTAINMENT WORLD AS AN A&R. I'VE INTERNED AT FLUID RECORD LABEL AS A JUNIOR A&R, ENJOYED IT AND NOW IM TRYING TO DO IT AS THE BOSS OF MY OWN EMPIRE. I AM SEEKING TALENTED SINGERS AND HIP HOP ARTISTS WHO ARE SERIOUS ABOUT THEIR CRAFT. THIS IS NOT A JOKE. THOSE WHO KNOW ME KNOW I'M A BUSINESS WOMAN, SO I EXPECT MY ARTISTS TO BE AS SERIOUS AS I AM.I AM SLOWLY BUILDING UP MY ROSTER OF POTENTIAL ARTISTS THAT I WANT TO HELP GET HEARD. WHETHER IT'S PERFORMING AT PARTIES,SHOWCASES, WHATEVER. EVERY LITTLE BIT HELPS. ONCE WE GET OUR LABEL UP AND RUNNING, THE CHOSEN ARTISTS WILL BE APART OF IT AND WE WILL MARKET THE HELL OUT OF YOU TO THE MAJOR LABELS AND GO FROM THERE.



I HAVE A COUPLE OF STUDIOS WITH DIFFERENT PRODUCERS THAT YOU MAY USE. (DIFFERENT PRICES FOR BOTH STUDIOS). DEPENDING ON YOUR STYLE OF MUSIC IS HOW I WILL DETERMINE WHERE TO SEND YOU. I ALSO KNOW SOMEONE WHO MAKES THE SICKEST BEATS FOR RAP ARTISTS AND ONE WHO MAKES BEATS FOR SINGERS.THE ARTISTS WILL NEED THE FOLLOWING:-PROFESSIONAL HEADSHOT ( I HAVE A PHOTOGRAPHER FOR THAT IF YOU NEED ONE) VERY IN-EXPENSIVE.-DEMO CD (WITH AT LEAST 6 SONGS)- TYPED PRESS RE-LEASE (MINI BIO. TELLING US ABOUT YOURSELF AND HOW YOU GOT INTO MUSIC,ETC) GOOGLE ANY ARTIST AND LOOK AT THEIR BIOS FOR REFERENCE.PLEASE LEAVE A MESSAGE IN MY INBOX IF INTERESTED OR FOR ANY FURTHER ?'S.


*GOOD DAY.JAY l.

Need New People in my Life

Need new friends". SOME of yall are sofqkn' sus ! Like foreal. Borinqqq ! Never wanna do shit unless its on yo' time, or you have too many excuses // flakes // liars// Lazy. Omq ! Can't do it. I'm too qrown && makin' moves for them middle school qames. Don't ask me to hanq wit u ALL THE TIME when yu` wanna qo out, but when I try to be nice and invite yu` places yu` lie (instead of just sayin' u don't wanna qo). Don't expect me to pay for everywhere we qo if u broke or drive every fck`n where! GIVE ME A BREAK! Stupid people. Smh. That shit urks the fCk outta me especially when it's consistent.

Subliminal Messaqes-Just Say it !

Have you ever been engaged in a conversation with someone, maybe a friend or family member and it seems as if their trying to tell you something that they don't like about you, but aren't really saying it?

I wonder why people speak in circles. It's like if your going to keep pushing the issue, just say what your REALLY trying to say instead of sugarcoating it or don't continue to push the issue. Maybe you got the same jeans someone else got and they felt like your tryinq to "copy" them. But then they use somebody else as an example, but their really tryna tell you that your the COPY CAT ! Lmao funny.

I guess since I'm usually the one just asking people a ? Or telling them straight up, or blasting their names out so they know who I'm referring to, I feel that the speaking in circles is uneccessary. Just say what u mean, and mean what you say.

I'm slowly learning that myself. I use to hurt people's feelings with my honesty, and after seeing what my words could do, I decided to solely write about everything and keep my mouth shut 90% of the time so there was no hurt feelings or drama. But even with writing, people seem to misinterpret my words thinking "I'm talking shit" or what not, when I'm simply speaking how I FEEL and the truth.

You can't win with people, you can't please them, so now I'm at the point where idgaf how people take my writing or how I speak. If I feel something, I'm going to write about it whether u like it or not, seeing as I can't talk to anyone about situations without coming off offensive or "wrong".

Whatever, I was born Jay L. Ima Die Jay L. I can't help who I am, but I can improve. But if anyone has the need to voice how they feel about me or whatever the case may be, PLEASE don't speak in circles and PLEASE no subliminals. Just be real and straight up. I listen before I speak. The worst I can do is agree or disagree. NO biggie. This isn't to one specific person, this is in general because I'm noticing people are doing that a lot. Acting as if they're scared to speak their REAL mind.

I'm a leader, NOT a follower. I do shit for myself , I DON'T wait for someone to hand it to me. I talk about shit and I walk what I talk. There's sooo many people in this world that are JUST LIKE ME, have the same name as me, wear the same shoes/ clothes, and some people may take it as I'm tryna be like them or their tryna be like me, but in reality, we just all share a lot in common and there's nothing wrong with that.

I'm starting to learn that myself. You can try to be original, but there's always someone out there who's just like YOU. It's not even that serious. Embrace it.

GOD is love.
-Jay eL.

Real Chance Of Love Re-union

Cornfed is beautiful.
Risky is bomb && chance is stupid for not pickinq her.
Lusty is a qorqeous, psycho bitch.
Kiki is a loose hoodrat
Bay bay bay talks too damn much.
Milf looks like an old porn freak
Cali tries too damn hard to be a niqqasian.
So hood looks like a lauren london =]

This shit was jokes toniqht I just had 2 say. But I must admit, everyone looks 10x better than what they did when they started off.


Mhm

2O12

OMG! Will somebody please tell me what the heck is going on ? Whyyyy do I continue to hear that in the year 2012 we're all qoinq to die ? How harsh. =( uqh. What is this nonsense about a mayan calendar only lastinq until 2012?

This is insane. I don't believe it! So after the year 2012 are we qoinq to spontaneously combust like on south park ? Or be flooded ? Like how is that possible? I really don't understand! I hate NOT knowing. Its stressful!


Will the sun stop shining after that year? And that will be our sign that we're about to be swept off of this earth? I really wanna know!

If this is true, this really sucks ass.
I hope it's just another out of hand rumor.